I'm Losing You and It's Effortless

Okay okay so I keep forgetting to take some pictures with the digital camera. But I really do love playing with my WoW character "Slvrbrtmn" aka "Silver Brightmoon". Yesterday I lvled up again, and skinned and leatherworked to get my skills up. I'm half thinking about starting my own guild, but maybe I'll join up with one first and then break away when I get a real grasp of the game.

I ordered the official, full version of Amazon.ca yesterday for WAY cheaper than Walmart. $24.99 for the game (It's about $60 at the store) and $29.99 for the 2 month pre-paid card. With taxes it was $66 bucks and a few cents here and there. Not a bad deal. AND I got free shipping. 4 to 7 business days can't come fast enough. Not to mention I'll have the book (even if it is a bit out dated).


Ffb. So this Keith thing keeps spiralling and I think I finally have an idea why. See, Keith gets it into his head, every so often, that he's a crappy boyfriend (gee...where would he get that idea?) and that he shouldn't date. Or he starts to overthink things, kind of like I do. My guess is that he realized what he was feeling (he did tell me he saw me in his future) and panicked. Men! I never asked him to marry me.

But yesterday was it. I've been saying I don't have time for games, and I meant it. After yesterday's stunt I'm finished. We were talking on the phone and he tells me that he doesn't work Saturday (he does, but he doesn't consider office work "work"). Great news that means we can do something like he promised we would last weekend. He said that he was going to spend Friday night down in Edmunston with Marie-Claude (I think that's her name) and work Saturday.

Me: "Well, when you get back Saturday then do you want to do something with Brandy and Craig?"
Keith: "Umm....let me check my schedule. I don't know if I'm coming home. I might stay Friday to Sunday."
Me: "Er...well you can't do that. Cause you're on the schedule for Sunday at the station."
Keith: "Oh...hm. Well, I won't say yes, but maybe."

You know what? Screw off. I'm not a backup plan. I made that choice when the Abby thing went down. Not anymore, no sir. You can't keep a promise? That really irks me, unless you have a reason (a good one) don't break them. If you can't keep a promise don't make one. And when I asked him what he's reason was for breaking it? He said "iono... :( screwed up." Yeah. Screwed up is right. Oh, "iono" is his way of saying "I don't know".

It's not that I'm mad at him persay...I think it just hurts. I'm starting to think maybe he shouldn't date. Not to be mean, but if this is the sort of thing that he puts a girl through while they're dating...I mean, maybe this is what happened with Mandi. Because there was that "honeymoon period" where if you read his blog, where everything was peachy keen. Then all of a sudden, he starts writing about how things are going south. Maybe she was tired of his constant need to be reassured, his neediness, and his judgemental attitude.

Brandy thinks that he hates her and Craig since he keeps making excuses to not go out there. I told her that I don't think that's the case at all. But I could see where she would feel maybe insulted.

Okay maybe I am a little mad. I just can't believe him. Live and learn I guess.